I care no more
I care no more (10-10-2022)
I am very much interested in why a person becomes careless towards the end of life.
He seems to be divided into two people, one reckless and going forward to death in the literal sense of this statement. The other is trying to save him. This applies to ordinary people, and to psychics, and especially to rulers. The rulers kill themselves and the nations subordinate to them. Perhaps the burden of experiences, depressions and sins corrode the conscience, which is part of God in man, and this unbearable burden, that has been formed over a lifetime, wants liberation and termination. I am coming up to this line and begin to feel how my consciousness slowly cracks and starts to divide into fatalistic despair and miserable clinging to the passing life. (pause with commas)
I care no more
The pain drives me reckless
I lie on the floor
Completely defenseless
And try to discern
The signature scornful
A weak, all concern
I am, split and mournful
Divided into
The evil and bad
A trying look through
And blindly sad
I’m rushing about
From prudent to senseless
A teasingly proud
Or devilish reckless
I’m cursed to endure
And live torn asunder
Awaiting the cure
Of God’s fatal thunder …
The time gorgeous measure
The ruler of mortal
The kind of treasure
The final my portal